I Hate To Tell You This . . .

but that's not blonde hair, it's gray:(

So I went to see Bruce, my hairdresser, today for a haircut. It's the first time I've been back since he convinced me to put a darker color in my hair to even things out. And might I remind you all that I was mortified and hated the dark color until it lightened up enough to look okay. Now, it is blending well with my real hair color that is growing in (which I've never really seen before).

We were talking about what to do with my hair and here's how our conversation went.

Me: See Bruce? See the top of my head? The hair is coming in a little bit blonder, but still matching pretty well.

Bruce: Silence

Me: What? Don't you agree?

Bruce: Well . . . I wasn't going to tell you this, but that's not blonde. That's gray hair . . .

Me: I can feel the color drain from my face as I try to not show the horror I am feeling.

Me: So what do we do about this gray hair?

Bruce: Nothing. You don't have a lot, but if it really bothers you later, we'll put some color up there.

GRAY HAIR! Seriously. I am 32. I expected gray hair, but not yet. I don't know exactly why this bothers me so much. I was cool with turning 30. I've accepted the stretch marks and repositioning of body fat that comes with having babies. I even really love my mini-van. I have been okay with my age and all that comes with it---until the gray hair incident.

This is so disappointing, because after years of highlighting my hair, I was excited to let it grow out and have "natural" hair for a while. But I don't think I want this "natural" hair now. Do I color it for the rest of my life or let it grow in and deal with it? I hate the idea of having to color it forever and I hate the fact that I am feeling vain about this whole gray hair thing.

If any of you out there have this problem and have found a good solution, I'd appreciate suggestions:)