I am.

I am a mommy, but my girls are not babies anymore. My mommy role is the same, but always changing.

I am a teacher, but not to kids, but to adults who are getting their lives together.

I am a wife, with a wonderfully forgiving, understanding, and one heck of a cleaner husband.

I am a pastor's wife, sometimes uncomfortable with life in that bubble.

I am a daughter, too far away from my parents.

I am a graddaughter, too far away from my grandma.

I am a friend, always learning and growing, trying to figure it out.

But most of all I am here. I am in this spot for a reason. I have the life that I have, the job that I have, the friends that I have, the house that I have--all for a reason. And it is all so very good. Ashamedly, I've been too much of a complainer to myself and others around me. (I think I mentioned in an earlier post that I've had a bad attitude for a while now.) But God gave me all of these good things, and I don't want life to pass me by while I dwell on the hard and difficult things.

I have quit lots of things I'm involved in--which is not a bad thing. I am no longer teaching the women's Bible study. I am no longer working as an administrative assistant from home. I am no longer volunteering for any big projects at church. I am taking a step back to let all the good in my life happen and focus on that. (Not to say that volunteering at church isn't good--the time committment isn't good at this point). I have a new job that allows me to work for three hours a day and devote the rest of my time to my family. I want to do just that. I want to play Barbies with my girls without worrying about what project I have to work on next. I want to paint Abby's room and fill photo albums (and yes, I have finally accepted that scrapbooking is never in my future because I detest crafts), and take baby dolls for a walk with my girls.

I've realized that complaining about the things that I wish were different gets me nowhere. I have a beautiful family and precious time with them that won't be here forever. Pretty soon they'll be on their cell phones talking to boys and wearing makeup. And before that happens, I want to take the time to just "be" their mommy and all that goes with that.

Life is good, my family is good, and I look forward to focusing on that goodness.